This past weekend I tagged along with my friend to his sister's house. They were holding a so called birthday party for their daughter, which none of her school friends and all of the family members and relatives from both the father's and the mother's sides. Let just say, it is an Asian way of having a birthday party for a kid.
While I was there, there were about ten kids under 12 from various relatives. They were curious, spontaneous, and loud. However, they were full of energy -- wanted me to answer this and that, or told me to do this and that. After helping setup the tables, chairs, and foods, I got some time to talk with my friend.
While the kids were playing in front of me, I began to ponder about personal energy. Not in a physical science sense, but in term of action energy. Just like these kids, these kids display action energy by being playful, and curious. However, from my own observation, all the proactive persons I know are at least eight years older than myself. Maybe it is the people I know, but most do more complain than being proactive. To me, it is somewhat disappointing. Maybe mid-life crisis age has been lowered? Maybe I just know the non-proactive people.
Myself, I was no different during high school, college, and university years. I was unsocial and move/act as needed. Then I truly find my life meaningless after working for a year. It was empty. No one to really talk to. Not really belong to any group. I felt dead. Then I found a meaning in this meaningless living. It is illogical, irrelevant, and totally pointless. I thought about what I had wanted to do, and just try to achieve them. It may not be perfect, and it maybe not be true, but what the hell. If there is only one life to live, just do what I always wanted to do. In that sense, I have become somewhat childish and erratic, but it makes my life worth living more -- พูดดี คิดดี ทำดี จิตดี
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